Houston, we have conception
After a particularly crummy afternoon at work on 1/6/04 I got an awesome call on my way to work on 1/7/04. I'm so excited! Mollie goes to the Dr. on 1/20 but I'm thinking good things about it. Gonna be a daddy!

That's what I'm talking about.
mike - i'm happy to have talked to you today. i'm glad that you called. you were not at all histrionic. you were rightly pissed about the ridiculously heterosexist and homophobic society we find ourselves in.

you are a viable candidate regardless of the test results. we may have to work hard to figure out other ways of making it happen, but we can do that. hopefully, we won't have to, but if we need to, we can.

love, mollie

I get emotional Baby
Collected my sample and made it to the hospital without incident. I got so rattled while I was there that I thought I lost my keys, had Deana come over with a spare set, and then found that they were already in my pockets. I felt like such an idiot. I did take her to lunch though. Least I could do.

Listening to Rumsfield on CNN while I was waiting to be admitted to leave my sample (which I'd already left anyway), answering a question about religious preference (none, please), and my relationship to Paul (room-mate, yeah - right) plus this being "Marriage Protection Week;" I got myself real worked up.

This being a triangular peg in a round hole thing gets old.

Spoke with Mollie and Mindi to calm down. They're really great. They're my only choice for people to do this with.

I am getting used to walking around with a semen sample. I wasn't nearly as embarrassed this week. Got to call Dr. Person this afternoon and find out when I'm likely to get the results. I have absolutely no idea.

Feeling spermicidal
So, I finally went to Dr. Gary Person's office last Thursday. Picked up the specimen cup and lab order form, a receipt from Cecilia's, and then bopped over to the T-Stand bathroom to collect my sample. Didn't take long. Headed to St. Mary's with my little brown bag of stuff. Everywhere you look, there are crosses, nuns, nurses, the elderly. Feeling a big uncomfortable but I got directions to the lab, finally. Sandy, Gary's nurse, said that I would just take in the sample and no one would ask what kind it was. Naturally, it was the first thing they asked. Turns out they only recieve spooge from 8-12 and there I was showing up at 2:00 PM.

Remarkably, I got to have sex on Sunday night so today is the first day I can go back - since it needs to be 72 h post-oooh face. Since I have sex less often than we have federal holidays, I've dealt with the delay like an adult.

So, I think I'm fixing to head back over. If the door is rocking, don't come knocking.

Flying Ovary Ohio
Well, we're fixing to make travel arrangements to go and make another attempt at fertility. Just got off the phone with Mindi. Decent flights from Atl. Too much cash money from Athens, which is a bitch b/c I hate driving back and forth to Atl.

Also, picking up semen analysis stuff today. Now that's freaky. I really hope I'm fertile.

Republicanaphobe
Its not just a knee-jerk reaction with me. It not just because I'm TW (that way). I've got lots of philosophical and moral reasons.

Its shit like Bush's Marriage Protection Week Proclamation that just happens to be during National Coming Out week. What a coinkydink. God forbid people that are different from George or Jerry or Pat feel like first class citizens for a week or two out of the year.

What really grinds my beans is that the Southern Baptist Convention is a co-sponsor. And I'm a member of a Southern Baptist Church, technically. I was already pissed that they were the only religious group that signed off on Bush's oil run to Iraq...I'd like to remove my membership letter. Just not sure I can do that without causing some kind of stink that's going to impact my mom. She's still an active member at that church. I need to do something. Just can't decide what I'd like to do. Went to the SBC website but they don't really encourage communication with headquarters. They prefer you take it to the church.

Interestingly, I think I understand Homophobia a little better though. I honestly think less of anyone I know who associates with that party. I'd rather not know about it. I don't want to hear them talk about it. I'd almost be willing to cut people out of my life to distance myself from it. Creepy for me, especically since about 1/2 my family vote that way.

I'm on a coming out panel at UGA tonight. Looking forward to that at any rate.

I guess part of what offends me so much about this bullshit proclamation is that its a covert attack on my dignity - and I've really had to fight to have it. I feel that my SBC upbringing contributed to my being a compassionate person but it also fueled a lot of self-hatred. The fact that the SBC has signed on for this crap is intolerable to me.

I could join another church just to remove my church letter. I don't know what to do.

Cherry Popper
First big entry. If I talk about my pets, will that make it doggie style?

I read Eric Nielson's BLOG and like the idea.

If Arnold can be governor, why shouldn't I have a BLOG.